As I walk the Green Mile

Ablaze deep inside, an overpowering fervour
The vortex draws me in, I hold on in sheer terror
A mouthful of the sky, we ask of the heavens
Even as our lives lie in sixes and sevens

Knocking at a window, a ray of light seems to leak
A shred of hope for the strong and the meek
The leaves rustle and as my knees go weak,
I hear in the distance, a Father-daughter playing Hide-and-seek

A calling to trust my life and commit to His Way
I fought the good (?) fight and held on to my Faith
Its easy to be blind, to close my eyes and shut out my truth
Liberty, a price I pay for Vigilance; I can’t have them both

I witnessed despair, I witnessed despondence
I witnessed guilt in every sense
I witnessed slander, I witnessed sin
I witnessed my patience wearing thin

Footprints on the sand; before me, behind me
Innumerable roads, an endless destiny
Facets to friendships, a fear of persecution
A void so barren, a vacuum cannot be such perfection

Walking in circles, looking for my Answer
None to be found, the Questions just run farther
An end I need, as the snakes coil tighter around my neck
I stand in the shadows, keeping a cracked heart in check

A faceless hand on my shoulder, hold me so tight
My angels left me, thinking I’d be alright
Vision blurred, sorrow cloud my eyes, cold clammy skin
Smoke beyond my horizon, love and hate akin

I can say I’m not lost in the fog
I can say I will find my way out of this bog
I can say I have retrieved my solace
But all I say is that I need you to clear this haze

This is my Life, I don’t have to be perfect.
The mistakes I made, they were all worth it.
Scars, that have burnt their way into my soul’s bedlam,
Scare others so that they cannot see how scared I am.